I very rarely throw caution to the wind. I like to pretend that I don't give a damn about consequences, but it's all just a facade. I'm pretty rigid about most things, but I tend to break my own rules. Not even break really, just change the rules. I'm almost OCD about having to live my life by a set of rules. It's why I like Gibbs rules so much.

Along other lines, I hate the mall. I was going to go last night after work and then hopefully have my dad pick me up. However, my mom and dad decided to take my little brother to the home and garden show. I still would have gone to the mall, but they told me that Colin was going to be out with his friends so the house would be empty. The lure of an empty house was too much. I thus decided to go home. Where I got 40 minutes of alone time, before Colin came home. I then had to spend my entire evening in the family room or else he would swoop in and steal the TV to play XBox 360. I rewatched the good parts of ER and then I watched The Office and Breach. Then I re-rewatched ER just for caution. The upshot of this longwinded story being that I didn't get to the mall until today. I thought I'd have to take the bus both ways, but my dad dropped me off and then my parents met me later in the day.

It was pretty dead when I first got there at 10:30, but boy did it get busy fast. And I wasted all the empty bits window shopping. By the time I left the Clinique counter, the mall was really busy. I hate shopping anyway, I mean sometimes I like to look at stuff, but crowds make me freak out. I don't know if that claustrophobia or agoraphobia, but whatever it is, I've got it.

As a bonus, my Twilight DVD arrived today. If I'd checked the mail last night, I could have watched that instead of watching Breach. That was not as good as I thought it was going to be. I thought it would be more edge of your seat than it was. It was mostly just boring. And Ryan Phillipe is not that hot.

( ER )

Well, I still haven't heard anything about the engineering job, but I do have a temp position to go to next week if it doesn't work. But I'm really hoping it will.

I'm about to head downtown in a few minutes. I have to have a security check done for the temp agency. It kind of ticks me off, because I had the paperwork when I did the initial interview, but I didn't know how to fill it out. When I asked for help, they just told me to leave it, that I wouldn't need it. Now I have to waste bus tickets to go downtown and do something I could have done weeks ago.

( The Office )

( ER )

( Ugly Betty )

My mom just sent this to me. Riding the bus is exactly like this, and sadly, I'm moving to Winnipeg soon.

Have fun riding in big orange taxi

I watched Ugly Betty & ER last night. ( Thoughts )

Seeing as I'm just using this as a place to rant, that's what I'm gonna do. This week has not been that great. I always enjoy going out of town for a meeting. This week I had a two meetings. The guy that runs these committees is such an ass. He practically snapped his fingers at me. I mean, I have a name, you don't get to snap your fingers at me. I realize that I'm young, but that does not mean that you can treat me like dirt. I work my ass off for these people, and I get treated like that. Anyway, that ended up being the least of my problems. My best friend's dad killed himself. Who does that? When does nothing become a better option than your kids? How do you get to be that selfish? And my friend, she's being her. Two days after her dad kills himself, she's taking midterms and finishing her thesis. She never wants to deal, but someday she's gonna have to. On top of all that, three of my friends are getting married and I'm still stuck in teenager world. Sometimes I wonder if I'm that girl, the girl that puts her career first. The girl that, when she's thirty and all of her friends are smug-marrieds and have kids, her parents will still be asking her if she's ever planning on getting married. The one bright spot in my week has been the fact that they finally acknowledged the whole Ray/Neela thing that I've been waiting for.